This is not Meeeeee!!!!!!!!

Looking at the mirror.
Feeling drastic terror.
Oh, my God this is not me.
How just could it be.
I am not that ugly monster.
My face seems just out of a toaster.
the eyes look so dead.
And their color is red.
Oh No, this is not my face.
Then you start running as if in a race.
All what you do is giving loud screams.
Escaping is the only thing your mind deems.
Then suddenly you hear a loud cry .
Wake up you fool " This is not Fair "
Ever day you have the same damn Nightmare.

Missing You

I can not help missing you.

And I hope you miss me too???

I miss your hand wiping my tears.

I miss the look which fades my fears.

I even miss your anger .

For your heart is so tender.

You quickly forget the strain.

And smiles spread once again.

You tell me: Darling I am all yours.

And we both enjoy the love falls.

Four Years Ago...!!!!!

Four years ago , at the same time, I wrote the following poem called " Santa Clause"
Today I was going through my note book and when I saw this poem I thought that It is time to release it. It is true that my heart now is not the same heart with which I wrote this poem , yet it is not a big difference , it is all about some wounds , some scares and a great deal of frustrations, however ,I am just happy because I feel that I am what I used to be , I do feel it and I am lucky that in spite of all the hardships which I experienced, I am still this girl of a loving heart and innocent soul. I still feel love for the whole world. I still wish goodness for every creature over our poor planet.
I still dream…May be it is not the same pinky dream…but it is still a dream. To all the fears , the tears , the pains and the doubts which hurt me so many times I would say: Thanks for letting me know that my nature as a loving innocent girl is too strong to face you and remain the same…It was too strong to go through all these frustrations yet stay able to survive.
I hope you like the Poem.

Santa clause.

A New Year Is Coming…
While I still Know Nothing…

Shall I Have This Feeling…
Or I Will Keep Waiting…

What Is A Great Surprise…
If I Open My Eyes…

To See Santa clause…
Standing Very Close…

Bringing Me A Nice Gift…
When I Open It…

I Find A Card…
From A Man Who is Very Smart…

Saying:
Baby Do not be sad.
One day I will be with you
And in your love I will be Glad.

The Heart Cure.

The heart cure
Is not always pure

Sometimes true
other times stew.

When trying to hold
You got to be bold

For it might be hot
And hurt you on the spot

Never try to avoid
Or your bids will be void.

0000

How can you ask me to stop thinking of getting you back.
How can not you feel what I really miss & what I really lack.

If , without me by your side, you are able to go on & to survive.
It does not necessarily mean that in your absence I'll stay alive.

May be you are so strong to erase from your heart my memory.
But, let me confess that with out you all what I get is damn agony.

I would not resist your desire and I will do what you want.
Just to prove that falling in love with me was not a terrible fault.


Farewell, I am leaving because for me there no more place.
Now you can lead life without me and I hope you enjoy the wide space.